Monday, July 24, 2006

me and bu...este, me and you

the longing for someone new
dawned on me when you found someone too
it made me wonder, it made me think
i actually lost you when i blinked

i was lost for days and months
but you weren't affected all too much
i even questioned what was wrong with me
and what you saw in her that you didn't see in me

i wanted you back, oh yes, i missed you so
this was the first time in my life i ever felt so low
it was just so hard to forget, i'm not like you
coz i believed what we had was wonderful and true

i was badly hurt as you can see
it was difficult to accept that you left me
now all the plans we made are meaningless
so that's why i was in such a mess

so my friends came to me coz i couldn't do this alone
they said maybe all i need was time and an ice cream cone
that didn't do much, i still felt blue
but my friends took care of me like i had the flu

they listened to me with every bitterness i wept
and watched me cry all the hurt till i slept
they even gave advice to help me clear my mind
even if being with me took up most of their time

my friend kept saying let go, it's time to move on
it's such a waste crying coz you've been long gone
so i thought about it and said i'll give it a try
i'll just save my tears for some other lie

so i decided to let you go and set us free
coz the only way to move on was to let you be
i lived my life one day at a time
until everything had become fine

one day, surprisingly, you just came back
saying things like how there was something you lacked
and we talked as friends even if it was hard for me
but there was nothing wrong with it so i let it be

everything was going fine until one day
you just had to ruin it with your ways
coz you said you wanted me back in your life
but i couldn't let you in, not without a fight

so i didn't say yes but i didn't say no
i was confused and i didn't really know
see the thing is i didn't need you right now
but i didn't want to lose you again somehow

then i realized i never really stopped loving you
i guess i just learned to live my life without you by my side
this is something i know is definitely true
i've just been trying to convince myself my love for you has died

so up to now, i still don't know what to do
you can't help me, you're confused too
but the decision about us will have to wait
since now we are definitely miles away

we still talk every once in a while
but it's hard for me to know if you're telling a lie
coz for a guy, you definitely got alot to say
but i'm trying my best to believe you anyway

alot definitely has changed, this is true
but you keep saying nothing compares to me and you
so like what i always say, let's just wait and see
whatever the future holds for you and me

you told me once you'd wait and i hope you still would
hope you wouldn't just change your mind like your mood
coz who knows one day we'll actually see
and find out if we were really meant to be

by anirtakanna at starbucks, july22, saturday, 3:30pm.

Friday, July 21, 2006

take me home

wondering the streets alone
no one's calling my phone
isn't anyone looking for me
thinking where could i be

but then again who would bother
to waste their time just to find me
and now as time passes by, i feel lonelier
coz i'm just a stranger to those who see

i keep imagining where you are, what you're doing
and wonderin' if you're thinking about me too
i'm missing you so much already
that now i also dream of me and you

it hurts me so that we're miles apart
i can't see your face or atleast hold your hand
but now, i'm all alone, left in the dark
and no one else could help me, only you can

i'm slowly losing control of my life
maybe i just need you to be part of it
coz i've tried my best to do it on my own
but then i realized i need you more and more

then there you were, right in front of me
looking so worried, i couldn't help but just stare
is this some kind of illusion or crazy dream
that you are actually back with me

you hugged me tight like you won't let me go
while telling me things i've been wanting to hear
you held my hand and begged me to try
but i didn't budge, all i did was cry

so now please would you take me home
coz i always wanna be by your side
with you is where i belong
take me home back to you

coz you know i still love you
you know i'll always care
i want you back in my life
so can i ask you to stay
and never ever leave me alone again

Thursday, July 06, 2006

What if finding the love of your life meant changing the life that you love? It's better to lose your pride with someone you love than lose someone you love with a useless pride.

Don't wait until it's too late to tell someone how much you love them, how much you care; because when they're gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry, they won't hear you anymore.

Love can never be wrong. Sometimes you blame the situation or even the person. But no matter who you blame, if it really wasn't meant for you, it just wouldn't be.

It's heartbreaking to see the one you love happy with someone else, but it's more painful to know the one you love is unhappy with you.

Boys.

They're vain and still deny it.

If you don't let them court, you're not giving chances.

If you let them pero hindi mo sinagot, they say pinaasa mo lang.

Be friends with them, binibigyan nila ng malisya.

Iwasan mo, then you're suplada.

In a fight, you explain, hindi ka paniniwalaan.

Manahimik ka, you're guilty.

'Pag hindi mo tinetext, iniisip nila agad ibang boys.

Text mo naman palagi, nasasakal daw.

Magsacrifice ka for them, then you're selfish.

Ipaglaban mo naman, they think tanga ka.

Sila 'ung tipong kahit mahalin mo na ng sobra,

nagagawa ka pang saktan!

10 Signs You're in Love

1. You'll read his/her message over and over again.

2. You walk too slow while you're with him/her.

3. You feel shy whenever you're with him/her.

4. While thinking about him/her, your heart beats fast.

5. By listening to his/her voice, you smile for no reason.

6. While looking at him/her, you can't see other people.

7. You'll start listening to slow songs.

8. He/She becomes all you think about.

9. You'll get high just by his/her smell.

10. While reading this, there's one person in your mind the whole time.
Age appears to be the best in some things.

Old wood, best to burn.

Old authors, best to read.

Old wine, best to drink.

Old friends, best to have.
Smile so the tears won't fall,

laugh like you don't hurt at all,

fake it so he'll never know that you haven't let him go.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

When people say they hate you for what you are, tell them that it feels better than being loved for what you are not.

No totally honest person can say that they were always happy. Life is made up of happy and sad moments, one cannot exist without the other, just as there cannot be light without dark.

A mistake is not the same as an error. We can make a mistake and correct it but it would ba an error to knowingly make a mistake and do nothing.
Love Quote: "Love yourself, for if you don't, how can you expect anybody else to love you?" It is only through loving ourselves that we learn how to love others.
Change is the only permanent thing in this world and with everybody that passes, we don't notice just how much it affects until... one day... the people who know you best say "hindi na siya ung nakilala ko..."

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Life holds no promises to what will come our way. It makes no guarantees as to what we will have. It just gives us time to make choices and take chances.